About Me
This past Easter (2026) after my church service, I got this feeling inside of me that told me to create this blog. And it was at a time when I felt not exactly but similar to how Job felt in the Bible, when God sent Satan to test Job’s faith in God. It was a time when I was homeless and had been living in my car for months. It was just a temporary setback that God put me through to mature me in a way that I can handle all that he has for me. And that’s what I stayed focused on. Me asking for help and handouts was equivalent to saying, I need man to help me cause God not helping me. And that wasn’t my truth. He was helping me internally, mentally, physically, spiritually, externally and emotionally. I didn’t starve to death cause he knew how long I could go without everything I thought I needed to survive. And he provided it when he could see that I needed it. It was just all in his timing instead of mine. So within that I learned a lot about discipline, trust, patience and faith.
These aren’t things you learn when you immediately go running to people for money, shelter, food and handouts. When you go that route, the majority of what you learn is new ways and organizations to ask, and depend on man for help instead of God. And I was determined not to do that. Even when people could see I was down bad without me telling them I was living in my car. I let them pray for me we discussed God and that was it. I never felt the need or urge to tell them my struggles or ask them for money cause God is my provider.
Nobody I’ve ever met (past or present/ related or non-related) can say she’s like that because of me or I had something to do with that. This experience was between me and God only. I’m like this because of the Holy Spirit, nothing else.
Thank you, Lord, for being my parent and picking up all those balls Cathy and William dropped and never attempted to pick up. Thank you for raising me to think like your child instead of theirs.
DISCLAIMER… when you have a strong relationship with God, you won’t have to ask people to help you in your time of need. The people that God sends you will help automatically without you having to ask.
Albums I can listen to with no skipping…
–21 Savage– Savage Mode (this album is like R&B to me. It reminds me of that Jeezy song when he say “put on some 2pac or something, that love making music.” This album is equivalent to that)
–21 savage- Slaughter King
-Kodak Black – Back for Everything (this album is super relatable to my life and got me through some hard days)
-Kodak Black – Kodak the Blessing (this album is super relatable to my life and got me through some hard days)
-Real Boston Richey- S.O.S
–Future-Mixtape Pluto (“you musta forgot who had her before you had her, Pluto had her, there’s no need to go through the data my new bitch is badder!!! TALK YO SHIT!!)
–Future- I Never Liked You (“Bitches still claiming me, I aint fucked over a year!! Replace bitches with niggas and year with decade/year(s) and I’m right there with you homie!! Like, nigga, let that shit go TF!!!)
-Drake – For All the Dogs Scary Hours Edition
-Drake & 21 Savage- Her Loss
-Drake- Certified Lover Boy
-Chief Keef- Dirty Nachos
–Chief Keef- Almighty So 2
–Sexyy Red- In Sexyy We Trust (the way lil baby had me blushing on ‘lick me’ tho. It was giving “omg, boyyy you play too much!!”)
-Scarface- The Untouchable
–Project Pat- Mista Don’t Play: Everythangs Workin (chef’s kiss)
–Devin the Dude- The Dude (“ay why come I can’t blow wit yall?? imma pass the shit man please!!” lol that shit make me laugh everytime I hear it lol) SN: the way I can still recite the bitch leaving the voicemail tho lol
-MC Eiht – We Come Strapped (SN: I only listen to MC 8 on cd in my car. It sounds completely different than the streaming version. It gotta be blasted in the car on cd, so you can really feel that shit. Streaming it, don’t cut it! Straight up!)
-Juvenile- Tha G-Code (the beat on March nigga step is crazy on top of the lyrics!!!)
–Fiend- Street Life (speechless 10/10)
